06/12/22
it was hot again today. 108 =.= i was sick all day, and still feeling rough as im writing this. but, ive been mulling over new recipes to try! i want to make a cold noodle dish, i think. i havent had one since i was probably 9 or 10 years old, so i think it would be fun.
im also toying with the idea of using she/they pronouns. that really doesnt have much impact on anyone reading this- and honestly it probably wont have much impact on me since most people in my family wont know or notice. but i dont mind that so much, from them. i feel like im becoming more of a person, these days- an individual rather than something that simply is. its interesting. i want to see where it goes.
06/13/22
its officially been a year since i shaved my head! in that time, i believe my hairs grown roughly from bald to being 3-5 inches long (its hard to tell with the curls). im tempted to shave it again, but i like how its growing out :) i probably have mentioned it before, but its still on my mind. ive been looking for interesting cooking manga today, and didnt find much, but i found one that seems promising!
06/16/22
decided to make the move to firefox today, currently in the process of maneuvering that. my brothers birthday gifts SHOULD be here by the end of the week. apparently the person who runs the site has been travelling for conventions and whatnot but that wasnt made clear when i ordered. oh well :/ better late than never.
ive been looking for perfect blue on DVD lately. itd be easy to watch it online but i feel very strongly on cultivating an ideal Experience and vibe. i have different playlists to drive to depending on the season and weather, as well as different playlists depending on if im showering during the day (sunny), day (cloudy) or at night. i dont know when i started really paying mind to that sort of thing, but i enjoy these things most when i feel like the atmosphere is appropriate. i have a big assed chunky CRT tv in my room and i want to watch it on that- also would be fun to watch cowboy bebop on it, though i have seen some of that on my laptop.
06/18/22
today was ROUGH bwlll i did not have a good time but im currently relaxing. my brother will finally get his birthday gifts tomorrow, and im TRYING to start watching star trek the next generation, though i always struggle to start watching new things even when i want to do it. enjoying a nice cold root beer as im typing. love this stuff but only Sometimes....
06/21/22
im trying to not spend money so wantonly lately but its sooooo hard =^=' i need to start saving more but theres so many things i want to buy- i had my eye on space warlord organ trading simulator but i also am wanting to get monster hunter sunbreak, since it comes out next week! i also watched throne of blood the other night, it was... enjoyable...? i honestly cant tell if i liked it or not, the pacing was so bizarre, but i didnt not like it, either? definitely was an interesting watch, though!
06/22/22
life sucks but at least theres jicama with lime juice and tajin on it
06/23/22
the struggle of trying to be more fiscally responsible when theree are. video games out there.... very sad. but ive doing really well at not biting my nails since may so thats good! im trying to watch star trek tng but the only place to watch it ive noticed tends to cut off the last 2-5 minutes of many of the episodes, which is frustrating. and there is simply no way in hell that i am going to pay $30 per season for a show that ended before i was born god bless <3
06/24/22
beginning to think i might have some kind of summer seasonal affective disorder >.> or SOMETHING who knows bwl... im cooking some potatoes as im writing this, though, and my brother might be spending the night next weekend. i hope so, because it means ill potentially get to hang out with him one on one, which could be nice, as theres usually someone else there. i really would prefer my aunt not be there because she just doesnt get our dynamic.
i hope you guys are doing good, though!
06/21/22
its been a minute since i updated this page! things have been slow lately, in my daily life as well as at my job. i got monster hunter sunbreak, yesterday, and ive been playing with my girlfriend! its really fun, and im enjoying it. but aside from that, i really havent been doing much. work, home, work, home, work. an endless cycle, as it were. so i drew a comic about a recent work experience.
as always, i hope youre all well, and keeping cool in the summer!
07/10/22
my aunt has covid, so ive been home the past few days. the two rapid tests ive taken have come back negative, and honestly, im feeling happier than i have in a while! ive been practicing my crochet, and watching a lot of star trek to pass the time. i think its a combo of not having to go to work AND not having to go out into the heat constantly. i feel good! i do get a bit bored, but its not as unbearable as ive had it on normal days.
07/14/22
took a PM painkiller immediately after waking up this morning and it beat my ass so hard. still home from work, and my check is gonna be fucked, but im having a good time at least. its cloudy today, shockingly, and im enjoying it as much as i can. who knows the next time itll be like this, after all. ate some gas station pizza and it was good, i forgot how much i liked plain sausage pizza.
07/29/22
ive been getting worse and worse about keeping this updated =.= but i guess it doesnt help that theres not exactly much going on with me. things are slow, i havent been up to much. work and the summer heat have me tired all the time, its kind of a bummer. i cant wait for it to cool down. ive been mainly playing the sims 2 and fall guys in my spare time lately, and making a lot of marinaded eggs, which i am enjoying. im having trouble finding a decent balance- the first batch was a bit too sweet, and the latest not quite sweet enough, so im trying to figure out the right amounts of everything to put in. im starting to try and formulate a plan on how to move out of state, as i know i cant afford my own place, and i need to be out of the house by 2024. so well see how that goes. i hope youve all been well in the interlude.
07/31/22
ive been getting an itch to play a new game lately, but nothing i can find really jumps at me. my girlfriend and i have been talking about a lot of cyberpunk stuff lately, so im in the mood for a cyberpunk type game, but none of the ones available to me are really what im looking for. ive got a very finicky preference when it comes to cyberpunk games- im not really fond of the "running around and shooting and sneaking" sort of... action fps games. im more interested in what could be considered sort of... slice of life narratives? like va11-hall-a, neocab, and the yet to be released nivalis. im more intrigued by being a normal person living in the world and coping with that, than being the person doing all the running around and getting missions. i know the characters are usually subjected to being in a capitalist hellscape, so theres no real escapism in that, but the things that havent changed propped up against the things that have i think is the contrast i enjoy. piecing together facts about the world, silly or serious, and how people feel about them, main character or not.
08/03/22
so to work through my current interest without having any games to play, ive taken to watching old cyberpunk movies. i watched johnny mnemonic last night, and liked it a lot. it was not very good but my criteria for movies is "did i enjoy watching this" which i did! i got a few movies on DVD today as well- john wick, freejack, and the lawnmower man. we'll see if i like them! i also downloaded rimworld, and have been enjoying that quite a bit now that im really getting into the rhythm of it. hope youre all staying cool o7
